More Love to Thee Oh Christ

Pregnancy moodiness

The grumpiness I get when I get less than 14hrs of sleep . 

Impatience with my coworkers that ask me the same question 3 times.

The laziness I instantly feel when my husband asks me to do something for him.

Pregnancy moodiness is an excuse for sin. Lately I've been telling myself 

"Oh, it's just hormones...I can't help it."

Yes, I can- I can choose joy and to love people.

if only I love Jesus more I would love the people around me more.

Right now Piper is kicking my ribs... reminding me to pray for her.

I want to be a respectful wife to my husband, I want to be a sweet mother to my children and I want to be a God honoring person to those around me.

But I have to choose to be in my actions. I can't keep this snotty attitude and say " I love God!"

My husband is one of the kindest people I know.

He is so understanding and patient
I wish I was more like him.

 And there are days like today-
Beautiful rainy
 I get all my house hold chores done.
Dinner is delicious and I start prepping on tomorrows
I have time to go for a walk and read ahhh-
ALL the clothes are clean and put away...until tomorrow :)
My husband is prepping traps in the living room
Making card board outlines for stretchers ...using my herb cutting scissors
But I really don't mind
As long as it's not my fabric cutting scissors ;)
I really love home making....it's my favorite job.
I love creating new meals, new sewing projects, drawing sketches of the birds.
Today I saw a flicker couple- they are Isaiahs' favorite bird.
I love learning new things and running as fast or as long as I can.
I love that I can grow a human inside me and they way it makes me feel
I've never felt the way I feel about Piper.
She is beautiful already.
Isaiah and I are going to be her favorite people.
We will have so much fun together.
Because we are already having fun- it's like we are inviting her into it.
God has our lives in His hands.
Thank you Lord for taking such good care of us.

I'm So In Love With Her and Her Papa

26wks pregnant.

WOW

I never thought I'd be so in love.

Going through old stuff, as I'm nesting/cleaning the house like a mad woman

 I'm finding old pictures, old love letters

The young young Isaiah and Becky falling in love

Growing up together

Dreaming

More dreaming

Being separate

Working

Being together

Working

Having fun

Learning

Good memories.

Now we are becoming the Isaiah and Becky

Parents

I woke up the other morning with my big pregnant body rolling out of bed

Messy 3 ft of hair plied on top of my head

Breath smelling like death

My dear sweet husband comes from sweeping the kitchen floor to give me a kiss and tells me he thinks I'm beautiful and he loves me so much.

Piper gives me a few joyful kicks to say "I love my Mama too!"

Isaiah smiles at her movements 

Sometimes she likes to go up behind my ribs and do a tap dance.

She will be the next Shirley Temple if she keeps up her practice.

I'm strongly discouraging this with ice packs or cold hands- hehehe

I'm so excited to meet her, I love her so much.

She makes me love her Papa more.

She has brought out sweetness in him that I've never seen before

He is going to be such an awesome Papa

Clothes

I have a ton of baby clothes- from sisters and friends

Will she have time to wear them all?

Probably, if she is a puker like one of her cousins

I haven't looked at the scale or my ever changing body and felt sad

Weirdness but not sad

Now when I see it snowing tonight and think about not going snowboarding this winter

I feel sad then

But then I think about all the time I will have to sleep while Isaiah goes.

Yes, today is my day off and I slept for 14hrs....no tossing and turning-just  pure "I'M TIRED SLEEP."

I thank God for this baby girl.

I'm so in love with her.

21wks and sucking her thumb

 24wks

Guffey Gender

Today we went to the midwife to find out what the baby is....

I am 20 wks and a day.

 Yes, we cheated- we peaked into my baby oven like a kid on Christmas Eve.

And....

We are excited to announce that we are having....

A cute little cupcake.

Piper Ann McGuffey

Pictures of her next wk!

Tomorrow...err Today!

On a break at work writing.

My husband bought me these huge flowers for our 2nd anniversary!

I came to work and there they were- he is so sweet.

He comes home today...at midnight.

He doesn't know it yet but I reserved a room at a nice hotel and I'm going shopping for a few presents in Missoula.

Well...he needs them...we tore our fishing net this past summer.

He lost his favorite sunglasses.

And ripped his only khaki pants (that looked so nice on him).

So it will be a busy day. 

And I'm soo excited! Only 21 hours!

Until I will wrap my arms around my ruddy fisherman!

2 Years!

Of being on the marriage adventure.

With my best friend.

This year I spend our anniversary alone.

Though I'm not alone- he is just as sad about as I am.

And today he told me he finally gets to come home Friday!

What better anniversary gift than to hear your husband say he is coming home? 

Before when we were courting I always wanted to be with Isaiah.

I'm pretty crazy about him.

But we didn't get much time together, him being an hr away, but the times we did have were so special.

I'm thankful for my mom and mother in-law ( plus siblings) who made it possible for us to have a pure courtship.

Being married- I was so happy just to see him every day.

But then he is gone most of the summer commercial fishing in AK.

Having your spouse gone for long periods of time really makes you think about how you treat them when they are around and how much you want them back...how much you want them and would do anything to keep them close in your heart.

How precious Isaiah is to me.

Being alone could make me bitter or I could choose to draw closer to God.

Sometimes I slip and think "Why me, why does my husband have to be so far away."

But really I would rather have my sweet husband just they way he is than any other guy that would be here all year long.

Isaiah is kind, he never complains, he is creative and romantic.

He makes my life exciting.

He has the best taste in music- even when I make fun of his taste at time shhhh I really I like it.

He is not afraid of anything: trying new foods, new sports, going places spur of the moment.

We get along so well- and I'm going to make sure we stay friends for ever....that we always dance crazy in the living room, that we play, that we always kiss and pray before we go to sleep.

After something scary and hard happens...like being newlyweds living off a $15 a wk grocery budget or getting hit by a deer in a car we just bought debt free I think bad things happen to everyone it's how you react and how thankful I am to be married to someone who will pray with me in the hard times and hold me close and have me laughing again.

Isaiah really is the man of my dreams and he's making my dreams come true.

Laugh at me if you will but my dream is to have a godly family, be my husbands help-meet and raise up children to serve the Lord with character. I really believe that is my purpose- to invest my time in my family. Not in an outside job- I want to be the best in what I do and I know I can't be the best at my job and give my family my all.

I believe it is more important to please God with my life than to please others by being successful in their eyes. They may say- she is just a stay at mom...she has no life- she spends all her time on her family because she has nothing better to do.

They are right- I have nothing that should be more important to me than my family.

And the seed to having a beautiful flowering family is a God honoring marriage.

A Ring Upon Your Finger

 I grabbed the wrong hand at first.

 We made a solemn vow with our right hands.

2 weeks from today I will be celebrating 2 years of having Isaiah wear a wedding band that says his heart belongs to me.

17 wks down 23 to go!

Almost half way there-

3wks until we find out if it's a boy or a girl- (yes we are finding out)

I didn't think I'd be the type to want to know before hand but now that I've seen it I really want to know!

Isaiah has been back up in Alaska a little over two wks and should be back home for good good (I'm hoping) for the rest of the yr in 2 wks. He is purse seining now and loves it.

I was really excited that he got the opportunity to go!

So I finally got nights at work! Three 12 hr night shifts! Yay! It's my ideal job at the hospital- working in  the ER and hospital side and only 3 nights a wk so I get 4 days off YES!

Although I don't plan on working after I become a mother- I would enjoy working there again many years down the road when all my kids are grown up but that is a long ways off.

Hopefully I will have more time to write about my thoughts now instead of a quick update on life here every 2 months :)

"The Lord has been so good to me, I feel like traveling on!"

Fishing, Folly and Fry

Once there was a girl who want to hike to Cliff Lake.

She had heard how beautiful it was up there and that many fish could be caught.

So with her handsome prince as her guide they drove the blue stallion up a curvy dirt road

Fought off mosquitoes

Hiked up the beautiful narrow path

Searched for just the right spot 

And he prince caught her 3 cut throat and one big fat brown trout.

Victory!

But this story doesn't end here...

As fate would have it a terrible pointy beast wounded their blue stallion on the way back to the castle.

With trees blocking the signals we tried to send to a nearby castle 

They were left with each other and 10 miles to walk

But alas! One message got through! And the King came to rescue them.

They mended the blue stallion, rejoiced with friends, and had a very late fish fry.

The End

Cliff Lake July 27th, 2012

Baby on Board

Hello, I'm very pleased to announce that Isaiah and I are going to have a baby due January 27th!

When Isaiah and I got the pregnancy test we had to wait until morning for better results.

Well, I could hardly wait, 6am I popped out of bed!

I woke Isaiah up with my giggling of happiness and he shot out of bed to kiss me.

My Mom was the first one I called...then we both told my mother-inlaw. After that we were so excited we couldn't stop telling people.

Isaiah left for Alaska to go commercial fishing so I took my Mom to my first and second midwife

appointments. Isaiah is on his way home now so he will first see the picture of his baby when he gets home.

Last Sunday the baby was 12 wks- so this is how big he or she is.

Though I haven't been very sick praise God I have been reallly really tired.

So please pray that I will regain my energy as I enter into the 3rd trimester.

Bad Choices and Other Things I do.

Yesterday I decided after working so hard sitting on my butt using my brain as a bat against the computer that I would come home from work and eat junk. Yes, the half-marathon is in 6 weeks, and yes I was supposed to run 9 miles that evening but there I was eating baked fries with a ton of ketchup- of course this was after I ate 5 macadamen nut , caramel and chocolate clusters. What a pig!
Today I was a good girl- I only ate 2/3 of a water melon and thought "Oh yeah I can do this and not have to pee all day!". My boss actually complemented me on my work- she tells me I look pretty when I work in the business office and am wearing cute clothes and not scrubs. A 98 yr old patient told me a I was the sweetest girl she ever met and then proceeded to tell me how she loves what the church has done with the place. Another patient brought his dog with him to the ER- after driving there from his house, after he wrecked his motorcycle breaking ribs and dragging it home with a flat tire...yeah...don't know about this guy...but his dog was cute. There was a giant red bra in the break room at work- in a wal-mart bag....no one claimed it...but we all were a couple cups smaller...that made me laugh and a few other people too- see I work with weirdos too-
So I came home and ate a protein shake (yay healthy!) then ran my 9 miles from yesterday and had a relaxing time doing so. I ran off the stress and had to just focus on my breathing getting myself into a rhythm I closed my eyes and just listened to my feet hit the ground and it was really nice...yeah there were hills and it rained a little but the run as a whole was really nice.
I really glad God watches out for me- I mean I don't always to the right thing- and I'm kinda weird and he still loves me and He gives the best gifts- He gave me the best friend I could have on earth, Isaiah McGuffey. This week has been really wacky on us bc I've been working days and he works nights and he will be leaving in two weeks for Alaska to commercial fish for 8 weeks (wahhhhhh!) but he has bee such a sweetie- coming and having lunch with me or staying up a little later so we can visit- and listen to me talk about babies/kids/pregnancy/being a mom...wow he should get a crown in heaven for that because I think I have worn out the subject more than 2,000 times and he listens with a grin on his face.
So there Mom- I wrote. Thank you for making me.

Haven Your Heart

One of my sisters is doing something I did not expect her to do- she was so boy crazy- I was really worried about her that she would get her heart broken. Today I am very proud of her she is a warrior at keeping her heart safe.

My husband and I were talking late Saturday night on the subject of saving your heart and how the devil will try to sway your heart when you are young to use later when you're married and times are rough.

Sunday morning I was thinking about that so I went to the teen class room and wrote "Save your heart for your future spouse!" on their marker board.

You may think this isn't important or I'm just being silly-but it is and I'm not if you want to have a good marriage you need to give your spouse your heart.

Proverbs 4:23
Keep thy heart with all diligence; for out of it are the issues of life.

Keep means to protect, guard, watch after-

Do you let your heart slip away on a crush that becomes something more.

Is your heart hanging on the every word of someone. Does your heart jump at the call or text of him or her. Does it pound in your ears when you see them?

You may not think this is a big deal until you are in a fight with your spouse and you remember how wonderful it was with so and so or your sugar had too much sugar and doesn't look as great as that crush in high school does now.

At the age of 13 I gave my emotional heart to the Lord and told Him I never wanted to date. I wanted to keep my heart safe until my husband was ready to receive it. And boy was he glad that I did. I don't know how many times we thank each other for saving our first kisses for each other. Isaiahs' hand is the only one I've ever held. He saved all his "I'm so in love with you!" looks for me.

Marriage is meant to be a once in a lifetime thing- why aren't young adults preparing for it? Why aren't they encouraged to save their heart?

I puked.

Sorry for the overshare- but I haven't been puky sick in a long time and yesterday after coming home from a very fast run with Isaiah (maybe went a little too fast) I went inside and felt so sick in my tummy I puked right in my hands (ewwwwww) a little shocked I ran to the bathroom and yeah....more and more. People at work have been getting the flu and I think I have it now....so I am home...kinda nice to stay in bed but hearing your tummy gurgle kinda makes me scared.

So as I was lying in bed a little distressed I started thinking about morning sickness and how I don't think I would mind puking so much if I knew there was a precious baby growing inside me...thinking about this made me sigh and start smiling- my husband came in and he thinks I'm crazy :)

Saturday:

Isaiah and his two brothers helped him outline where the yurt will be and put a few logs in a barrel of diesel so the ends can soak it up and prevent rotting. I watched while holding my favorite fat orange cat that belongs to my in-laws. For dinner David (another one of Isaiahs' brothers) chicken Alfredo and Italian sausage Alfredo- with a very yummy salad too. Ahhh- thinking of food right now makes me sick.... :(

So anyways we had a good time.

Sunday:

We drove to Missoula for church, Isaiah is starting to preach in the jail some Sundays and this was his first time- I couldn't go with him so I ran a few errands then we both went shopping for tools. Hearing him talk about the jail really made me sad- a lot of those guys have families that they are missing out on because of what they did.

I can't wait for the April meeting at our church! It starts in two weeks for two days- super excited about it!

And that's the update-

Ward Clerk

Tomorrow I'm starting a new position at the Hospital- I'm very nervous about it although I've been orientating alongside the full time Ward Clerk (she is awesome by the way) 3 days this past week. Tomorrow it's just me ..... a new nurse, a vetren CNA and a bunch of Dr.'s.....that I need help reading their orders.

So please pray for me that I don't make mistakes. Please pray I learn everything very fast and am a good helper to all my coworkers.

This is good for me- it's making me stretch my brains but it hurts too at the end of the day I have a headache and find myself spelling vancomycin the name of a drug I had to write out in the MAR about 50 times that day...not really that many times...but I know how to spell it now.

So if this works out I will be Ward Clerk every Friday, Hospital CNA every Monday and on call the rest of the week :) so Lord willing this will be my thing...something not so crazy like working 3 nights in a row one day off then a 12 hr day shift....I'm ready for something steady and regular.

So that's what's new :)

Saturday, February 18th, 2012

Sorry I haven't posted for a really long time.

I forgot my password...then I procrastinated....and finally I'm back to blogging.

We had a lot of fun snowboarding. Just us two this time.

Enjoying the slopes now- hopefully next yr I will be sitting in the lodge with a baby bump reading and taking pictures. I'm really enjoying right now but we are excited to start a family. hopefully by August.

Spring is coming right around the corner and training for the half-marathon will keep me in shape- I decided a full-marathon is not in my future. 80 miles a week is a bit much for me to commit to and the race is on Sunday and my half-marathon goal is to get done in time to shower and get to church which I did last yr so I should be able to do it again or beat that time. So half-marathon it is.

Isaiah "Yells, hey Becky follow me- I did and I'm still alive and had a ton of fun!"

Proverbs 5:18

Let thy fountain be blessed: and rejoice with the wife of thy youth.

Road to Rebellion

When I was 8 or 9 years old I had it in my mind that my parents didn't love me. So to test their love I told them I was running away for good. I packed every stitch of clothing I had in a big bag with two handles as I cried the whole time and muttered to myself telling myself they didn't care about me. It was pouring rain outside as I walked out the door and My Dad asked if I was sure I wanted to leave. "yyYes." I sniffled. About half-way up the road my Dad yelled

"Becky, come back!"

"But you guys don't love me!"

He ran in the mud in his white socks scooped me up and brought me back in the house as I hugged him so tightly. My Dad loved me. I was a brat. He chose to love me anyways. And as I grew up I really learned that my relationship with my Dad is very important.

My Dad isn't Mr. perfect but he tries very hard to do what God wants him to do.

My Dad has an authority and his authority is Jesus Christ.

Growing up my physical authority were my parents I had to choose to do things their way or my way. Spiritually I have an authority and that is the Bible.

Now that I'm married Isaiah has authority over me.

And I have the choice to obey or rebel against my authorities.

Everyone has some kind of Boss and that boss has a boss and you know what happens when the lowest person on that chain doesn't do what they're supposed to? Disorder, chaos, confusion.

What does God tell me personally from His word?

Colossians 3:18
Wives, submit yourselves unto your own husbands, as it is fit in the Lord.

Ephesians 5:21

Wives, submit yourselves unto your own husbands, as unto the Lord.

Ephesians 5:24
Therefore as the church is subject unto Christ, so let the wives be to their own husbands in every thing.

Wives can even be a great help in leading others to Christ by showing the picture of the church following Christ

1 Peter 3:1
Likewise, ye wives, be in subjection to your own husbands; that, if any obey not the word, they also may without the word be won by the conversation of the wives;

I know of a lady in my church who is a great example of this. She got saved and her husband was lost and she wanted him to come to church and hear the Bible being taught and he ended up getting saved because of her great testimony.

Now what happens when a wife doesn't obey......what happens when she rejects Gods' plan for her. What happens when she does what she wants? What happens when she falls out of love with her husband? What happens when she leaves her kids? What happens when she goes out and has "fun" with her single lady friends? What happens when she blames her upbringing on why she is the way she is?

What happens when she rejects Gods' plan for her life.

I see it all around me. The heart break, the rejection in the kids eyes, the sad mess.

Hebrews 11:25
Choosing rather to suffer affliction with the people of God, than to enjoy the pleasures of sin for a season;

Oh and sin is fun but it doesn't last forever.

I would rather live in a small town with hardly any friends, being a wife and help-meet to my husband (helping him achieve his dreams and have a family-soon-) going to a bible believing church 60miles away than.....what are 21 yr old girls doing these days? Oh yeah, living it up, drinking, going out on dates trying to find the perfect guy that suites my compatibility to a tee, traveling the world....oh and my all time favorite 'discovering myself". GO DISCOVER WHO GOD WANTS YOU TO BE!

This post is mainly preaching at myself. Seems daily I need to get the fear of God put into my life because I'm not above backsliding, bossing my husband around, getting discontent. I just need to remember where I would be or could be if I rebel against Gods' will for me- Rebekah Kay McGuffey.

Obedience= freedom