Monday, October 29, 2012

More Love to Thee Oh Christ

Pregnancy moodiness
The grumpiness I get when I get less than 14hrs of sleep . 
Impatience with my coworkers that ask me the same question 3 times.
The laziness I instantly feel when my husband asks me to do something for him.
Pregnancy moodiness is an excuse for sin. Lately I've been telling myself 
"Oh, it's just hormones...I can't help it."
Yes, I can- I can choose joy and to love people.
if only I love Jesus more I would love the people around me more.
Right now Piper is kicking my ribs... reminding me to pray for her.
I want to be a respectful wife to my husband, I want to be a sweet mother to my children and I want to be a God honoring person to those around me.
But I have to choose to be in my actions. I can't keep this snotty attitude and say " I love God!"

My husband is one of the kindest people I know.
He is so understanding and patient
I wish I was more like him.

 And there are days like today-
Beautiful rainy
 I get all my house hold chores done.
Dinner is delicious and I start prepping on tomorrows
I have time to go for a walk and read ahhh-
ALL the clothes are clean and put away...until tomorrow :)
My husband is prepping traps in the living room
Making card board outlines for stretchers ...using my herb cutting scissors
But I really don't mind
As long as it's not my fabric cutting scissors ;)
I really love home's my favorite job.
I love creating new meals, new sewing projects, drawing sketches of the birds.
Today I saw a flicker couple- they are Isaiahs' favorite bird.
I love learning new things and running as fast or as long as I can.
I love that I can grow a human inside me and they way it makes me feel
I've never felt the way I feel about Piper.
She is beautiful already.
Isaiah and I are going to be her favorite people.
We will have so much fun together.
Because we are already having fun- it's like we are inviting her into it.
God has our lives in His hands.
Thank you Lord for taking such good care of us.

Monday, October 22, 2012

I'm So In Love With Her and Her Papa

26wks pregnant.
I never thought I'd be so in love.
Going through old stuff, as I'm nesting/cleaning the house like a mad woman
 I'm finding old pictures, old love letters
The young young Isaiah and Becky falling in love
Growing up together
More dreaming
Being separate
Being together
Having fun
Good memories.
Now we are becoming the Isaiah and Becky
I woke up the other morning with my big pregnant body rolling out of bed
Messy 3 ft of hair plied on top of my head
Breath smelling like death
My dear sweet husband comes from sweeping the kitchen floor to give me a kiss and tells me he thinks I'm beautiful and he loves me so much.
Piper gives me a few joyful kicks to say "I love my Mama too!"
Isaiah smiles at her movements 
Sometimes she likes to go up behind my ribs and do a tap dance.
She will be the next Shirley Temple if she keeps up her practice.
I'm strongly discouraging this with ice packs or cold hands- hehehe
I'm so excited to meet her, I love her so much.
She makes me love her Papa more.
She has brought out sweetness in him that I've never seen before
He is going to be such an awesome Papa
I have a ton of baby clothes- from sisters and friends
Will she have time to wear them all?
Probably, if she is a puker like one of her cousins
I haven't looked at the scale or my ever changing body and felt sad
Weirdness but not sad
Now when I see it snowing tonight and think about not going snowboarding this winter
I feel sad then
But then I think about all the time I will have to sleep while Isaiah goes.
Yes, today is my day off and I slept for tossing and turning-just  pure "I'M TIRED SLEEP."
I thank God for this baby girl.
I'm so in love with her.

21wks and sucking her thumb