So Many Paths

Ever feel like there are so many ways to go you just don't know which one? Maybe it's not even your choice, you have done all you can and now it's up to God which way you will go.
I'm there right now- I've been there before.

The biggest decision I had to make on my own was whether I was going to court Isaiah or not.
I was barely seventeen and here was my friend who was wanting to become something more. It was scary, I prayed a lot and cried and told myself I was too young for this big life decision but the little voice kept saying
"This is right, this is what you are supposed to be doing right now in your life."

You see, you have to understand, Isaiah and I are so much alike in what we wanted in a relationship- I'm pretty sure there are only a handful out there.
We wanted ONE person ever to love and cherish. We wanted commitment, trust, and security.
So this was a huge deal- once I said "Yes." I was in the boat- no turning back and boy did this scare me. Isaiah had fasted and prayed a lot before he asked me to start this journey with him. Me, I fasted and prayed a lot while we were courting, because I knew we could not do this on our own...someone bigger than us would have to take control. We had God and He gave us so much more than we could have asked for. He gave us a support team, our parents were behind us cheering, rebuking, praying, sometimes restricting us along the way. And boy did we need them for encouragement when others were beating us down telling us we wouldn't make it and some simply thought we were crazy.
Now I can see how that time was preparing us for the present and all that hard work paid off.

The paths before me now- who knows which one I will take? I would like to take all of them.
One leads to adventure and is a little out of my comfort zone. I've done all I can do and it's no longer in my hands- but to wait.
Another is challenging me and making me grow and soon I will have done all I can in that area and waiting will begin.

And then there is the path that keeps going out before me, it's the 'If all else fails' path that will keep going and going.

Isaiah and I have prayed and prayed ... now we wait.